Journal 300 - Australia

'Sometimes in life, there are people who don't like you. These people are dicks.' Or at lease that is something I tweeted last night.

The truth is, that they aren't really dicks as such, its just that they have problems of their own. Problems that they cannot comprehend themselves. They can't deal with the stresses in their lives so they tend to take it out on somebody else. Perhaps somebody that they see as a person who has it good, that can take all of their shit. Of course the problem with that is, that generally, they don't know what is going on in the other persons mind or life. But because they can't see it, or don't know about it, its seems fine to attack them.

I'm not normally bothered when somebody has an issue with me. If an individual doesn't like me, then that's ok. What grates me is when they have no real reason for it. I know a lot of us will say 'I just don't like him/her' and have no reasons or explanations as to why. But I certainly prefer to know when I have upset somebody. Its better for all the parties involved that way. When you don't like somebody, it rarely only effects you and that person. It branches out and makes everybody else around you uncomfortable too. Like, when you don't like your best friends other friend, it makes it awkward to go to a social gathering when you know they will be attending. Then when you turn up, the atmosphere changes and there is a distinct tension that every other guest notices.

It has become apparent that somebody doesn't much like me. We both always knew that we didn't get along greatly, but now things have become that bad that the situation is quite uncomfortable. To the point where I don't even feel welcome here. I arrived feeling like what I had done in the last few days, quitting my job, concentrating on the farm and going from there once I was done, was a great decision. I had it mapped out. I didn't bank on all the drama that I would be involved in though. I at least hoped that we could remain civil.

Of course, if I knew what I had done wrong and had a chance to fix it, things would be different. We could smooth it over and deal with the situation. Unfortunately, I'm not sure that's going to be the case. I don't really know what to do now, there's a snag in the plan I had and I didn't really come up with a Plan B, just in case. I guess the only thing I can do is hope for the best and trust that everything will work out. We all have to deal with the bumps on the track, and this is just one of those. The silver lining I suppose is that it can only really get better from here. And it will, I am still in the land of dreams, where anything has seemed possible so far. I won't let this get me down, because there is no point to that.

When you come across a hard time in life, you have to just do your best to turn it around. Right now that's all I can do, look for the better things in the situation and concentrate on them. In a few weeks time I will be able to apply for my second year visa and be free to travel and make more memories. Start planning the next adventures and be in a place I really want to be.