My last day before a new chapter.
I've always enjoyed the excitement that a new venture can bring. Even though I've not found the new venture just yet, I still think that's part of the journey. Deciding whats coming next. I get to explore lots of different options, imagine myself in different situations. I get to let my imagination run off and create all sorts of scenarios that right now could well be possible. I'm currently going through the processes of job hunting, which is something I find mind-boggling. Hours of internet searching, uploading resumes. Being overwhelmed by the amount of jobs you could apply for, or in some cases underwhelmed and disappointed to the point that you end up applying for a job in McDonalds because frankly, it's all too much. Which is exactly what I have done. And I've been turned down.
Despite this though, the ideas and directions are shaping up nicely. I have a confidence that will not be broken. I may not have an immediate job yet, but it has kick started my applications to Hotham for a second winter and various other options too. Like working on an Island of Paradise by the Great Barrier Reef. The important thing is that I'm motivated. Even if it is 10.30 am and I'm still sitting in my Pyjamas. I'm blaming that on the fact I've not had my coffee yet and I don't function without it. Still, I feel I have been productive. I have made phone calls and placed ads. My next step is to write up my plan. Some goals and ideas of what I might like to do.
In a few days I'm going off for a weekend of live music. Which I cannot wait for. I get to spend time in the city and see bands that I grew up listening to. It also fulfills my resolution to see more live music. I think 6 bands in one day is a pretty good start?! I would also like to see what work there is in Melbourne, even though this isn't essential. I just feel it would be beneficial for me to find a new location for the next part of life.
I'm travelling, and that to me says independence. It says growing up and standing on your own two feet. I want to discover more, come up against some obstacles and learn how to deal with them in my own way. Today I realised that in some way or other I have always been supported. This is both a blessing and a vice. I'm grateful for all the help, but at almost twenty-four I do feel I should have achieved more by now. Most of my friends have steady jobs, houses and other such things. Now I'm not saying I want my career or marriage or a mortgage, I'm just saying I'd like to up my maturity levels.
Some might say I'm already quite mature, but lets face it; Maturity isn't judged on how long it takes for somebody to laugh when another says the word 'Willy'. (I'll bet you just chuckled didn't you?) But it also is not solely based on your job prospects, degrees, relationships are either. In fact everybody gains maturity from different aspects of life. I'm planning to gain mine during the rest of my travels, by branching out, going out on a limb. By only seeing my support network as a fall-back in case of ire emergencies. I think it would be fairer and easier on everybody if I become independent. I don't want to end up going through life being expectant of other people, it's somewhat disrespectful.
I hope this will make me more worldly, give me some more common sense and also some self respect. Help to understand how I like things to be done and find out the reasons why others like to have things done a certain way too. I'll have respect for myself, other people, other peoples things too.
After all, that's the idea of travelling. Learning about direction, maps, cultures and becoming open to things that you thought were far off even your wildest dreams.
Travelling is about making friends in different languages.
Travelling is about growth.
Travelling is reaching limits, and pushing past even those.
Travelling is finding yourself.
Travelling is respect.
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