Right, just a quick post. Maybe
So a few days ago I was feeling pretty sad about my situation. Things were not happening as planned and I was definitely not happy, but in the last few days things have happened and I have progressed past this little hiccup. I thought perhaps I needed to put more effort in myself to improve my situation, which is exactly what I have done. No use in feeling sorry for myself and blaming all my problems on others at the end of the day. I realised that things can go both ways.
I have also had a lot of events and news happen that have made me feel more positive recently. The impending visit from my parents being one of them. I was at such a low, but this news on it's own has really changed my view. In less than a week my Mum and Dad will be touching base in Australia. Flying thousands of miles and making near enough the same trip that both myself and my sister have made, to the land of Opportunity. I wonder what opportunities lie here for both of them, whether it will change their outlook, or give them different goals or pathways.
This news hasn't much changed my plans or intentions, but it has given a different perspective. Knowing that they will be here and possibly convincing me that I need to stay in this country, or at least not return back to the UK to settle for the better. The next few weeks will not be easy to make excuses for my want to return home. And to be honest, I have no excuses as such, Only homesickness and a desire to see my friends.
I also spoke to one of my lovely ladies earlier today. She is also in the same boat as me, in that she has left our hometown and is starting afresh, for the better, in a new life and country. She too has left the drama behind to make herself a better life. She, like many other people in my life recently, told me that I seemed so much happier, better off, relaxed... All these other positive changes I have made since going away ten months ago. She told me how proud she was, and I realised I felt the same toward her.
It takes a hell of a lot of courage to pick up and leave everything you know behind. I said to her that sometimes I wish I could pick up everybody that mattered and plonk them right here, with me, in Australia. We would probably all be so much better off if I could. Minus the spiders....
The point is though, I'm feeling more content now. Things have settled here. The atmosphere is so much better and my mind is somewhat more settled. As most of you know, my mind changes more than most of you have had hot dinners, so for me to be settled is saying a lot. We shall see how long this lasts. By tomorrow I'm sure Something will have changed my mind and I will be writing about something entirely different.
But for now, contentment is in play. I have confidence that only good things are coming. I mean, how can I not, with all the positive energy and good news that has been flying around/in the past twenty-four hours. Things are on the up. I'm a happy bunny and looking forward to the great times that are ahead.
When something gets you down, try to think of the positive. You. never know how much it might turn around
xx
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