Journal 175

It was nothing special. Not really. All I have done it Tweet lots and eat strawberries.
Yum.

I have decided to begin my exercise regime again. I have been wondering for a few weeks why I have felt so strange and down. I came to the conclusion it was lack of exercise. It's only been the first day and I already feel so much better for it. I must remember to take the before pictures.I did also tag on Twitter #IWillBeSkinny. A friend then told me off for mentioning skinny. It upset her. I guess she is right though. My aim shouldn't be skinny. I shouldn't put that out there. It should of course be 'Healthy'.

Perhaps that's why people have scolded me in the past for my gym addiction. I've merely been using the wrong word when asked why I go to the gym. 'To be skinny' would be my reply. When in actual fact it was to be healthy, happy and fit.  It always has been. Exercise just makes me happy. Its all the endorphin's. I've never longed to be a skinny twig bitch. Not at all. I just want to have a healthier lifestyle. I'm a size 10. In not Hollywood terms that pretty much makes me a rake. Especially with my height.

Something that people don't understand though, and probably the reason I use the word skinny, is because I was a bit of a chubster at school. Yes maybe it was puppy fat. But if I don't exercise I will pile on the pounds. Not fun. People don't believe that when I tell them either. I am happy at the size I am now and I would like to remain there. Sometimes it feels that people judge me for going to the gym to be 'skinny' because they think that you don't need to go to the gym when you're a size 10. Well you do if you want to maintain it. At least, when you're me anyway!

But either way, I still much prefer being able to walk across the road without feeling like my lungs are about to jump out of my mouth onto the floor. I like to take pride in being fit and healthy. I will stop using the 'S' Word though. I do understand it puts across the wrong message. I'm just looking to change the way I feel. Stop the withdrawals and feed the need I have. Get back in touch with my health and emotions. Just be happy. Simple.

And anyway, who wouldn't want to be happy all the time and eat Strawberries everyday. (unless you're allergic to strawberries. Then maybe that wouldn't be very appealing.)