Ooopsie. I think my last post might have been a tad too depressing! My apologies.
See I said it was unlike me to feel like that. all down and deflated. People started to worry after reading that. Mumma B even messaged me to check that I was alright. In fact she gave me some pretty sound advice (as mothers tend to). It was on this advice and reaction that I realised that there was nothing really in particular on my mind. I am in a much better mood now though, I'm sure you'll be pleased to know. After all, as Mumma B said, I am on Holiday (we forget the 'working' section of my visa, I am a 'Lady Of Leisure', according to some folk!) I'm not here to worry about things. Besides, I've had a great few days at work, again reaffirming that I am not totally out of place, or my comfort zone. That in fact nobody is going to come in pointing at me and shouting 'She doesn't belong here' as I had mentioned before that I thought they might.
I'm progressing shall we say. Tomorrow for instance I actually have three clients that have already booked in. I know it doesn't sound like many right now but I think its pretty good, after all I've only been there for a week. I'm getting there. The girls do like me and we've started planning the Christmas party. We even put the Christmas decorations up today. It was very surreal. Bright sunshine, 25 degree heat and a Christmas tree just don't mix together in my head. I think the next few months are going to feel like a dream.
It's been great to walk to work each day. Its just the perfect amount of exercise, also meaning I don't have to spend out on a Gym membership, I get to breathe in lovely fresh air and I'll get a tan building up. Not to mention I'll probably get a bit fitter and tone up somewhat. Bikini Body here I come!! The girls think I'm mad though, walking to work everyday. They can't understand why I would do it. They don't understand, I haven't had a summer in a good 16 months. I NEED it. They seem to just take the beautiful weather for granted. It's very kind that they offer me lifts home where there can, but, honestly, I enjoy the time to myself. It gives me space to wind down and contemplate. Daydream.
And yesterday I had a lovely lady display feelings of gratitude towards some actions I had taken. I sent a parcel to a dear friend at home for her birthday. It was just a small thing. Inside I also enclosed a letter. I wanted to let her know how proud of her I was. And how much of an inspiration she is to me. And of course that I was thinking about her. I speak to her on a regular basis these days. Its funny how being away can bring you closer to people. We've been friends for years, but I somehow feel that since I came away our bond has become stronger. And it's fantastic. I've watched her become a new woman from afar, and even though I've not been physically there for her, I know that she has felt my support in many ways.
So really the last few days have brought me back up to speed. It's amazing how much a few positive actions can spread their way into your life and change things. Besides, who wouldn't want to be happy for the most part? A smile is contagious after all.
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