Conflicts and Contemplations

You have to put it out to the world. You have to let the Universe know what you can achieve.
A conversation I had a few days ago led me to thinking (again). It's a wonderful thing, the power that each and every one of us has inside. There really is nothing too great if you can truly believe in it.
Two people have said this to me in the last few days 'You have to put it out into the Universe for it to become'.

And it is so true. I said I would go to Australia, and travel around, and I am. It's only the very first thing, but I truly believe that the things you put your mind to are the ones that will happen. It's the first step to acting upon your dreams. Talking about them. Once you begin to talk about them, they become more real. Even more so if you are to talk about them in a sense that you have already achieved them. If you live them and breathe them, they are already there. A part of you.

Recently I felt a little bad about planning other trips to different countries when I had seen so little of this one. I had a 'Run before I could walk' moment. Of course, the Thailand part is one I really must think about. When I'm doing it. Looking into the flights. Changing my way home accordingly. This is the one I must begin planning now. In fact... I really do need to change my way home. As much as I miss home (not really the place, just my friends) there is no way I want to be going home at the end of the month. At this stage that would be ridiculous.

I haven't seen or done enough that to turn around and go home wouldn't be my biggest regret. I need to get a feel of the culture. I need to explore the nitty gritty. All the real stuff. I had a little holiday last week. It was great fun. I was in my element as a tourist, playing with roller coasters and people dressed in Animal suits. But it wasn't quite how I wanted to see it. The theme parks are great and all, I adore all that stuff. I'm not quite sure how I feel about Sea world, what with my stupid fish phobia but I did manage. I'd like the next bout of travelling to be like it was when I was a kid. Jumping in the car and taking a few wrong turns to end up somewhere spectacular. Somewhere that the tourists don't know about.

I should probably grab the map out again. Considering that I may be starting work again in a month or so, I still have a little bit of time where I could be seeing things. I need to get my act together. I've done what I can now to make some more money. So for the rest of the time I should do the travel bit. I have a few trips planned, but I wonder if I can fit in a few more. As I'm writing the excitement and longing for adventure is setting in again.

Even if I am being proactive on starting on some Volunteer farm work before I begin another job. That would be a little weight off my mind. I can probably clear at least 3 weeks of that. Which is another thing. To get my second year Visa I have to complete 'Farm Work'. 88 days. I wonder how on earth I'm going to fit that in. Then I think about it in the long term. It means that I have another year here to do the travelling side. Meaning there is less pressure to fit it all in to the next 6 months. I'd be mad not to do it. Plus it would be an experience in itself, especially the place that I would be going to. When you work there, you become one of the 'Field Mice'. Apparently there's even poles to dance on at this place. Its like the freakin' Playboy Mansion.  Of course I need to spend time at this place. It sounds like amazing fun. Maybe it will help bring out the party girl I lost on the mountain.

So there we have it. Ups and downs and conflicts in my head. But already putting it into words is making things a little clearer. I'm off to make enquiries and put plans into action now.....