Journal 177

Well, these last few days have been very exciting!

Yesterday I received a job offer for the first job I applied for in the town. So considering I would probably still be looking for work if I was in the UK (after about two years in a part time job, which, even though I loved was never going to pay the bills), I think that result is pretty good going!

I also got some post. Very special mail. A big box of goodies from Miss W. It was so exciting. And there was a very large letter to go with it. Six pages of gossip that made me laugh and cry all at once. I felt very spoilt and very loved.

I get the feeling that yesterday was just setting me up for an even busier day today. I began today with a goal. I thought it would be a good way to start. I decided to look into Salons that might be hiring. I know I already have a job but I'm really not sure my ultimate ambition in life is to stay in retail. There's nothing wrong with it but I can't see myself in my 40's working in Topshop...

I think I've also realised I'm letting life slip past me a little bit. I've gotten a bit lazy even. Sometimes, you see opportunities don't just jump out in front of you, waving, blowing a whistle and saying 'Take Me'. Its not as easy as that. Most of the time, you actually have to make those opportunities yourself. Which is exactly what I did today. I wandered to town and visited a few Salons.  I think it was meant to be today. I had put something out to the world and the world was giving back.

I didn't get disheartened when I was told 'No' on a few occasions. I didn't give up. Instead I stuck around and had a chat to the girls. And then I got help. Real information that put me in the right direction. A contact. It felt so right. So I went on my way to to find this woman. We chatted and she was pretty certain she could find the right thing for me. And all of a sudden the timing was right. I was even telling her that I was ready to forgo all other jobs (while of course still earning money, I don't want to be broke, that's just silly) in favour of making a go of a Beauty career. This is what I want. I've finally admitted it.

It makes sense. I always go back to this field. I'm always trying to make a go of it. And today the time became right. Something clicked making me want this more than anything else in the world. Stage One in finding myself was well underway. Amazing.

So I have always tried. But not hard enough. I've not wanted it this much before. No though, It is time to succeed. Its time to get in touch with all that I learnt. Wear the Uniform. Put my knowledge to use. This feels good.
I may need some guidance, a bit of training. I might even have to tap into the patience thing that I seem to lack most of the time. I know I can do it. I know I can.

All I need now is one foot in the door and a big smile on my face.