Journal 183

I have been getting alot of things done. It feels great to achieve things. Even if it merely doing the mundane every day things. Sometimes that is just enough.
I have begun to look into the next few things that I want to do while I am here. Its certainly giving me something to look forward to. I had questions answered for me. I haven't been sure when I would be booking my flights home and left it to fate to help me to decide. To tell me when was right. I decided to take the first date that was offered, that happened to be the furthest away. I felt this was the best way.

I have the details finalized. Now all I have to do is begin planning all the other things I have left to do. Also today I began Zumba again. I love it. It feels wonderful to be exercising. And it's even better to be having fun. Even if the instructor is a bit 'Dance Academy' style. I'd rather be getting the exercise than turning into a big fat lump. I want to feel good about myself. After all, summer is coming and I need to be on a beach!

Tomorrow I've got my Salon trial. I really hope it goes well, I'd like to be successful. I know if I'm not I have other options. Either way it will be nice to know what I am doing. To be able to have something to work around. I want to begin planning again. I'd like to know what I'm doing. Or at least have a rough idea.

I still have this long list. Even though I've done a lot I'm not convinced I've done enough. I'm not quite satisfied. I haven't quenched my thirst for travel just yet. I need more. I need to feed my brain with more wonderful things. New experiences. I need to awaken my senses and give them something more. I need to gain more perspective. Become enlightened. I need to push everything out of my head that is holding me back and just do what I need to.

I've found that writing letters is helping me. I have written a three month plan, full of goals and wishes. If it is on paper it makes more sense. It's black and white. It's final.
I'm also enjoying telling my story to my nearest and dearest by my own hand. It feels so personal and I love it. It's taking it away from the Social Medias and technology. It makes it more real somehow.

So tomorrow things will be more settled. I will know my direction. I will begin my plans. Everything will be right.

Tomorrow.